Not Daddy's Little Girl

When I was one years old my dad left my mom and I to fend for ourselves. He took all her money and jewerly under estimating my strenght, and how she is a survivalist. He thought that we would never be able to make it on our own. However, growing up I did not really think about him. All I did was repress my feeling towards him. But when I strated high school I could not stop thinking about. I always wondered how different my life would be if he was still in my life, would I be happier, or would I be sadder? Then I slowly started to get very depressed. I never got the chance to be daddy's little girl, nor did I get the experiences every other girls have gotten to experience with their dad's. So what do I do now, do I live in the past, or do I learn from my experience and become stronger from them.